Begin Again

So I have finally gotten on here and read your post and your prayer. I am amazed that we seem to be dealing with a lot of the same issues, provision, direction, purposeful work all these things can be so disheartening. I find that this is the stuff that steals my joy, lessens my faith and leads me astray. I think God knows that provision is a big issue for me that I have to put all my faith into holding on to the fact that God will provide and that God takes care of children. Even knowing that, bringing it into the light and still it consumes me "the worry." I do not know what God has in store for us, the conversation has begun with the knowledge that we all feel like we don't belong here. We have asked God for his direction, for his plan to be worked out in our lives and so far nothing has been revealed to us. I continue to speak to my husband about his spiritual issues, he continues to deny that he even has any spiritual issues but he has come to the point where he admits that things that have happened have affected the family and their relationship with God. I see this has a step in the right direction, even if it is a baby step. I continue to struggle with loneliness and isolation and working at a job that is both hard on the body and very unsupported with pay and encouragement. So the long wait in the dessert continues and I do not know what is on the other side. I hold on to the promise that God has good things for his children.


Dear God, Hear my prayer this evening. I lift up my friend and sister Angela and her family. Lord you know what the needs are, you know that Eric has taken a step of faith in quitting his job in the hopes of something more. Lord I ask for you to reward Eric's faith, that you would step out and meet Eric and deliver to him a job, work, and purpose and that Eric would know that all things come from you. Lord I ask that you would surround Angela with a blanket of peace through this time, that she would know that you are giver of all good things and that you will provide for them what is needed. Continue to feed her with your unending faith and that she would continue to speak through her writing and blogs and profess your name again and again. Lord I ask that what ever is biting Orion and Zara would be banished from their home and yard, that the invisible bugs would be gone. Lord surround those children with your perfect love and protection, help them to grow in faith and become soldiers in your army. Amen